So painful feel like dying and yet am still alive

~So painful feel like dying and yet am still alive~

I'm feeling so painful and it feel like dying inside out and yet am still alive, you only know how deep you're fallen when you felt the pain inside out.

Fuck up body  too. Fuck up work fuck up mind. I've been spinning mindlessly for years be it on studies, work or relationship. She so unhappy and yet I'm part of the cause, FUCK. I do my very best to hold on to this and never give up until now, there are reasons why I didn't give up on you. Cause you the one I've LOVE deeply, so deep and strong that no one can place it.

No relationship work without disagreement, it's how each and one another step back and agree or give in and work together toward the goal.

Sometime the negative and dark side of me really wish to end my life at that point of times, but by ending you can't solve the issues, it's just running away from the problem and you're one of the reason that keep me alive and going. I really love you very much. So much that no words can describe how much I love you.

If only I've handle the matter better on Sunday night. :( Today I really cried too much.....

假如把犯得起的错 能错的都错过

应该还来得及去悔过

假如没把一切说破

那一场小风波 将一笑带过

在感情面前 讲什么自我

要得过且过 才好过

全都怪我

不该沉默时沉默 该勇敢却软弱

如果不是我 误会自己洒脱 让我们难过

可当初的你 和现在的我 假如重来过

倘若那天

把该说的话好好说 该体谅的不执著

如果那天我 不受情绪挑拨 你会怎么做

那么多如果 可能如果我

可惜没如果 只剩下结果

如果早点了解 那率性的你

或者晚一点 遇上成熟的我

不过

可惜没如果