Another sleepless night

~Another sleepless night~

 

 

Yes, another sleepless night right after another sleepless night. And I'm feeling like some shit state now!! The flu just somehow start by itself, so as the headache. How am I going to concentrate on my stuff later on? I really don't know man...

 

Somehow My care for you and the thought become something that you think I'm scolding you. And ended up you give me the unhappy and non reply talk. If you feel that it is rude for me to remind you of care about your health, I'm sorry. But have I even do the same thing to you? From what I can recall through my tired brain now I don't think I so....

 

I'm felt so dumb and stupid sitting at the train station for more then 30 mins and thinking of should I go find you and talk out with you, or should I wait until you have more rest and stable mind then talk to you. That moment my headache really quite pain... Pain to the max.

 

I'm try hard to work thing out and trying hard to keep my promises ended up become this. And I'm really sad to see all this. Really.... I don't know how much more positive can I really keep it up to push away the negative effect. Each time you said "you didn't expect something when I promise" It hurt and sad me by a lot and it make me feel very bad about it. But I just didn't show it up cause I don't want you to feel sorry or sad. I will rather I take it in. That why at time I will keep quiet and trying my very best to keep up with the promises. 

 

 You drink because you want to sleep and then you worries me and I'm unable to sleep until now. I don't know how to start my day for now. Haiz.

 

When you have an clear mind and you feel like talking let me know.